Just one of those days
I feel like every time I take one step forward, it's really two steps backwards. I'm so confused with my thoughts and emotions. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. Is it my Parkinson's, my meds, lack of sufficient sleep, hormones (i am only 39). I need answers but feel the medical community isn't really hearing me. I feel like I'm going crazy inside my body and I'm screaming to just let me out. I have to go to work still but lack the energy to get out of bed. So I'm depressed some might say. Depressed! Why would I be depressed? I have a terrific and supportive family and can still manage much on my own. Are my struggles with raising two boys 8 and 6 the same as any other single parent or are they compounded by my disease. I know that I can't let Parkinson's Disease beat me, but today I just wish I could start life over....I'd like to climb back into bed and bury my head in the pillows. Maybe I should adjust my DBS? I wish there was a "fix it and make it all better" button I could push!